Years ago I found myself on the floor of my bedroom, weeping because I felt so lost, so disconnected, so far away from God. I wondered if He was real. I questioned if He could be known and if I could be saved. The realization that I had nothing to bring to a big, holy God washed over me. What could He possibly want with me, a person who tried and failed, again, and again, and again?
He met me there, in my nothingness. And He accepted me. He loved me. He called me closer instead of pushing me away.
No matter how far your life and your choices have taken you away from Him, just turn around. He is there, waiting for you. His arms are open and His heart is burning with love. Just turn around.
Stop striving. Stop searching. Stop running. You’re going the wrong way. You can’t help yourself. The enemy lies and says that salvation is found in the pursuit of self but Jesus says to find salvation you must die to yourself.
I know you get so far away, so deep into the darkness that you can’t see any light. You feel the weight of the curse brought on by the disobedience of the first woman and the first man. You live under the curse and can’t find a way to save yourself. And with each day, the light fades until there’s total darkness.
You’re in the way.
What you see is your own shadow. Turn around and the light of Christ will receive you.
Jesus loves those who know they are weak, who know they can’t get it together on their own. He died and conquered death so we could be saved.
He loves you.
You’re familiar, maybe so familiar with this verse that it’s lost any meaning. But read it with new eyes…and keep reading.
“For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but in order that the world might be saved through Him. Whoever believes in him is not condemned, but whoever does not believe is condemned already, because he has not believed in the name of the only Son of God. And this is the judgment: the light has come into the world, and people loved the darkness rather than the light because their works were evil. For everyone who does wicked things hates the light and does not come to the light, lest his works should be exposed. But whoever does what is true comes to the light, so that it may be clearly seen that his works have been carried out in God.”
God welcomes those who come with child-like faith1, desperate faith2, broken faith3; those who are guilty4, those who are on the outside5, those who have nothing to offer6. This world is broken, but He will restore it. He wants to bring as many people to Himself as will have Him. He’s waiting for you.
Because the truth is, He wants our hearts. Not our good works, not our limited human helpfulness. No, he wants us. All of us. He took the weight of the curse to the cross and broke free. And He offers that same freedom to us.
Turn around. Meet His loving gaze. And spend the rest of your life drawing closer to Him.
He’s there. All that matters is that you turn to Him. He’ll take it from there. Please, just turn around.
“Behold, I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in to him and eat with him, and he with me.”
- Mark 10:13-16
- Matthew 9:20-22
- Luke 7:36-50
- John 8:3-11
- John 4:1-42
- Luke 23:40-43